Title: Wilderness Time

Date: 4/13/2008    Location: Central Presbyterian Church

Texts: Exodus 10.12-15  Luke 4.1-2

Series: When Faith Is Hard: Never-Ending Plagues

Dr. William M. Smutz

 

It all started quite unexpectedly, and for a long time I didn’t see or  understand the connections – but I certainly did feel the effects!

 

Sometime in late January of my junior year in college, the accelerator cable

on my car broke, which meant the car wasn’t going anywhere until the cable was replaced.  Usually, replacing a cable on a car is not such a big deal, but when the car in question is a 1965 Rambler station wagon, finding almost any part takes an act of God!                                                                 

 

A week or ten days later, I was playing in an intramural basketball game and made a sudden stop, but my knee kept going.  Before I knew it, the knee was several times its normal size, and I was getting around – though not very   well – on crutches!                                                               

 

Four or five days later was Valentine’s day.  I had made plans to take the young lady I was very much in ‘like’ with out to dinner….Of course, she had to drive, because my car was broken, and I was still on crutches…..During dinner was when she chose to announce that she was breaking up with me!  As you might imagine, it was a very quiet ride back to campus. While each of these three events was frustrating or inconvenient, or a bit emotional; they weren’t, by themselves, overwhelming.  If they had happened with some greater chronological distance in between them, they would have been no big deal at all.  But coming as they did, in rapid succession; like the plagues of locusts and frogs and flies came upon Egypt ;

piling on top of me like one pounding ocean wave after another – the impact was significant.                                            

 

I wouldn’t describe what I experienced in the wake of this series of events as depression…..But neither was I in a very good place.

 

For the next several months, it seemed like I was just wandering through life.  I was functioning and personable; had my best semester ever, grade-wise; the car got fixed; the knee got better…. But still it was as if something was missing.  I couldn’t name it, or describe it; something just wasn’t right.

 

I’d watch TV rather than hang out with friends. I quit going to church.  I think my parents worried about me because I didn’t call home much.  It took four or five months for this sense of malaise to pass….And this period of strangeness went away not because of anything I did intentionally, but because life just moved on, and I went with it.

 

It wasn’t until several years later, when the leader of a workshop I was attending described “wilderness time”, that I finally knew – and had a name – for what I had been through! 

 

Wilderness time, he said, is when a series of unconnected but tough things happen to you; leading to a time that feels purposeless – like you are just wandering around.  The workshop leader went on to say that as hard as wilderness time can be on a person emotionally, physically, spiritually;  it can also be a life-giving and life-changing time, if one is willing to trust God, and if one is willing to work at it!  The wilderness has a central place in Israel ’s memory and imagination.  It was to the wilderness that Moses led his people as they fled slavery in Egypt .  The wilderness is where the people of Israel wandered for the next forty years….And all during this long journey, Israel was completely, totally, utterly, dependent on God.

 

God provided a pillar of cloud by day, and pillar of fire by night, that directed Israel in her wandering.  God sent bread-like manna every morning, and quail every evening so Israel could eat.  God gave Moses the ability to bring forth water by striking a rock with his staff.  God protected Israel from enemies and from self; God gave the ten commandments so that the newly born, wandering nation would have order and structure.  In the wilderness, God’s people had to rely on God for everything, and so were more faithful; and so were more connected to God.                                                 

 

This same reality is in play in our Gospel lesson…..Where Jesus’ forty days

in the wilderness following his baptism, symbolizes the forty years of Israel ’s wandering, and demonstrates Jesus’ complete reliance on God for everything.  It was his experience of wilderness time that set Jesus on the path he was to travel during his three years of public ministry.   Whether we know what to name it or not, I believe we all have or will experience periods of wilderness time in our lives.  Times when we  get lost in the wilderness of our experiences……Times when a handful of difficult but unrelated events spin us out of our normal existence, and send us wandering through life…..Wandering away from God….wandering away from the places where we know community and

support…..wandering away from the purposes we thought we had in life…..

 

Wilderness time can be frightening and disorienting; setting us on the path

of deeper despair….But wilderness time can also be when we come to  realize once again or for the very first time, just how much God loves us, how much God cares for us, how much we are invited to rely on God.  The Old Testament prophet, Hosea, really takes the people of Israel to task for forgetting about God.  He accuses them of being so busy worrying about money, and having parties, and feeling like they are in charge of themselves and the world around them….That they forget about God….forget about  their dependency on God….forget that it is God’s world and not their own. 

 

Hosea literally gives the people of Israel hell for their behavior….And then,  just when you think judgment and punishment is coming, Hosea, speaking for God, says to the people of Israel ….‘Why don’t you come back out into the wilderness with me again; for there things are always good; there we always get our relationship right; there I get to be your God and you get to be my people, and there is nothing to mess that up……In the wilderness you need me more than when you think you can take care of everything on your own….                                         

 

It’s a scary thing, a hard thing, for us to rely on someone else.  We’ve been taught since we were little, to be independent, to be self-reliant, to pull ourselves up by our own bootstraps….So the idea of relying on God when times are good, and especially when we feel we’re out in the wilderness, can be frightening. 

 

And yet, as those called, invited and expected, to model their lives on the life of Jesus…..Who willingly went out into the wilderness; knowing that was the only place where he could forge a bond, a relationship with God, that would sustain him through even the toughest times….As those who try to follow in Jesus’ steps, we are invited to take wilderness time seriously.

 

This doesn’t mean we have to seek it out; for in my experience, wilderness time will find us and claim us all sooner or later….But when it does come; when we find ourselves out in a spiritual or emotional or relational wilderness, we are invited to see it as a time when we are closer to God; a time when we can let go of the rigid control we try to maintain all around us, and let God be God.

 

That’s the gift of wilderness time, I think….A gift available to us today and tomorrow, and any time life gangs up on us, and conspires against us; any time a few unrelated occurrences spin us out and set us wandering.  Are you in wilderness time today?   If so, let God be your companion there. 

 

Do you know someone who seems to be out in the wilderness?   By your quiet presence along side them, be a reminder to them of what Jesus learned during his forty days of wilderness time……That God is waiting there….waiting for them, waiting for you and me, waiting to make us whole again, waiting to love us back to life.

 

Amen!!!